Connection, connecting with people, forming relationships and bonds in a way that is supportive, but in both ways. Like, how do I support people and, and know that they’re there for me. So it’s not superficial relationships. And grow through that, I guess.
Love, that’s always important. I feel like that’s somehow always connected to everything that I do or think about, in small ways, and in different ways, even though that’s a massive topic in itself. Sometimes I don’t even know, like, still trying to find purpose? Or – how to have responsibility? I think that’s important.
How do I be … like – functioning, in a way? Like, how do I how do I be the version of me that can work for myself and for other people? And that I don’t feel just collapses or runs away?
I want to help people. That’s always important to me. I guess I’m always thinking about how do – howcan I do that, that works for me? Or how do I – how do I? How do I not just take, from, from people,from things, and just consume stuff? But help nurture things, and spread some positivity? And how… how can I now, more than ever, I’m thinking of how can I be sufficient, self- sufficient, and not rely so much on other people?
Like, if I think about the future, I want to be in a place where I can be okay, and not worried that everything is going to collapse around me. You know, I think about death and once my parents die, and if something happened to my sister and other people, I would just have nothing. And I suppose that’s true for anyone. Like if all of your connections, if all of your loved ones die and you’re left with nothing, you have nothing.
But if, you know, kind of want to be in a place where, even if the worst were to happen, I’d have some integrity and roots, and enough stability to… not be “okay”, but not, yeah – Collapse.
Yeah, that’s what I’ve been thinking about, recently. How do I grow roots and make firm, genuine relationships with people that aren’t just based on transactions? Suppose you got to have some of those too. But… yeah.
That’s all I’ve got right now, in my head. I feel like there’s a lot more to say. I‘m not even, I know I don’t even know if I’m happy with what I have said. But yeah, I’m gonna leave it there.